maverikk

SO i have always found that Betrayal was one of the worst thing you could do to someone.  I have done my fair share of terrible things but betrayal was always the worst.  I have recently been betrayed and once again i am reminded how much i hate the feeling.  Theda has failed to pay rent and skipped out while i was out buying a new car.  We had to pay the other half of the rent (625.00 + 25.00).  Its all good however for revenge is a dish best served through collections.  Dalina and i have given our 30days through a letter of explanation.  It states that Dalina and I are leaving...but not with Theda.  She would have to give her own notice.  That means that the apartment will still be rented but instead of being rented to all of us it will be just hers and she wont even know it till collections calls her about the 1550,00 dollar late payment.  PLUS!!! i am going to sue her ass for the 650,00 she owes me this month.  All and all this has left me in a bad place but i dont think its anything i cant handle.  In other news i got a new car!!!  I got a mazda 3 from John Hine.  More on the new car later however. Bed time for me.

So Dalina walks in a bit ago and i guess her car like had a VERY hard time making it here.  It kept turning off while she was driving and so in a nutshell its time to either fix the fucking thing or get something new.  All my hope is in Jeremy at this moment because hes my car guy.  Jeremy is a friend of mine who started at Southwest about a year and a half after i did.  We were always nice to each other however early this year we really hit it off and started working together more and a friendship was born (despite the fact that he is a bronco's fan).  It came to my attention about 2 months ago that he was a car guy so i asked him about Dalina's car which has been having some trouble.  Being as i knew nothing about cars i assumed it was a transmission issue.  The Kitty van which hailed from El paco's place in Oregon had a lot of miles but it had recently been serviced and was working great.  However after leaving the car in the hands of my wife and having the age of the car finally catch up to it the car just took a dump.  At first it was small stuff like the tires needed to be replaced then it started vibrating and having a super hard time starting.  It always seemed to work through this stuff however got Dalina from point A to point B.  We put over 2 grand in the car over the several years we have had it and it has gone through more then its fair share of fender benders and mild crashes.  At one point we had to unbend the front of the car so that we could close the hood after Dalina hit a poll or something like that.  Now the car is turning off randomly.  Jeremy has  theory that it has something to do with the gas reaching the engine or and oil leak.  He asked me to get a manual and he would take a look at it for me.  Well i kinda pushed it off being as i couldn't find a 93 Mercury Villager manual at any of the local auto shops.  Well tonight forced me to grab the manual off of Amazon.com.  Dalina and i had  long talk in the kitchen and she was saying perhaps its just time to get a new car.  Now in respect....it is.  However i had my heart set on a new TV this week and that is now looking like a distant dream.  I have collected over 900 bucks and i was gonna throw a few hundred more into it in an attempt to get myself a nice flat-panel and have it mounted on the wall.  Now i am gonna have to throw that 900 into either a down payment or throw it into my Capital one card and pay it off in one stroke.  Anyway you look at it the TV isnt going to happen at this point.  The next question is....Why even attempt to fix the kitty van?  Well if my friend Jeremy can atleast give me an idea of whats wrong with it or hell if he can fix it then i can sell the car and attempt to make something out of this whole thing.  Still sad about the TV...Dalina doesnt get why i would be depressed about that but then again i don't really expect her to.  Its not a big deal cause i am a man and i will get over it as i have gotten over all the other disappointments in my life.

i miss it.....

I miss everything about it....

i don't have anyone i can talk to about this who wont either use what i have to say as blackmail or throw in personal vendetta.

I miss her....

I dont know why but i feel really alone tonight.  Dalina is at my dads place cause of my crazy roommate...more on that later.  I just wish i had someone with me.

OMG i go so fucking drunk last night it wasn't even funny. Dalina had to come get me and i left my car at leightons house. I just slept for an extra 3 and a half hours to get the headache to go away and to calm the fuck down. Now that thing that hangs in the back of my throat is all swollen and i am trying to deal with that. It was kinda an accident this time. I had a few grateful deads and they have like 4 shots in them and i had already had an entire pitcher of beer by myself and i was just FUCKED UP. i didnt puke but i should have.

Oblivion consumes me.....

The game that is. I have been playing the game Elder Scrolls 4: Oblivion the past 2 days and i have to say "this game fucking rocks".

Wednesday:

I woke up and played Oblivion. Around 11:30 i made pizza and went out drinking with Malyna, Ryan and Dalina. We had a fantastic time even though Ryan got super fucking drunk and very weird about music. He kinda got upset that i was "cursed" by the whole song remembering thing. He kept insisting that he knew all of these people from bands and whatnot. "YOU KNOW....i am loosely connected to the band "taking back sunday" cause i know Mike"! So of course i retort "well that makes all of us LOOSELY connected to them as well cause we know you and you know Mike". This didn't sit to well with him......HEY KINDA LIKE HIS ALCOHOL!!! Anyway we got back at like 3:40 in the morning and crashed fast.

Thursday:

So at 10:00 my alarm goes off cause we(Dalina and I) have to be up for the "spiderman guy" to come and check out the apartment. Brief thing on this guy is that he found our add on http://sandiego.craigslist.org/ and became interested. So he emailed Dalina and his email address was like spiderman something at gmail. So after Dalina spoke with him once or twice she learned that his cat is named Luke. Now if this is just by chance then find but if he named it after the Grandmaster of the New Jedi order then.....then.....FUCKING SWEET. Anyway he was coming over to look at the place at 11:00 and he called at like 10:40 and said that his day was going to shit and that he needed to reschedule. I am not mad or anything but it kinda sucks cause was really hoping to figure all this shit out. Oh well so Dalina and i went to go have brunch with my mom who had a run in with a snake this morning. After that i ended up at my grandfathers house fixing/getting to work one of the digital picture frames that he got for his birthday last year. Dalina had to work so we made haste back to the house and after that she ran off to work and i was left all alone again....thats when i heard it. FUCKING OBLIVION LIKE CALLED TO ME!! So several hours later Leighton Msgs me with random "buttlord GT" comic quotes and after i show little interested he is like "i interrupted Oblivion didn't I"?....."maybe" was the best i could come up with. So a few hours ago i got up and threw in some Babylon 5 and watched about 6 episodes of Season 4. The whole time this is going on i am doing laundry so i am on load fucking 6 right now. After the last episode i decided to clean house and started like doing the little shit here and there. Like threw away the old bottle of cough syrup and like took all the damn soda cans out of my room and like made the bed and stuff like that. All and all i have had a pretty decent day. I am going to go work on some Dark Heresy shit so that tomorrow i can talk to skeet about it.

Friday:

So plans for tomorrow are....

1. get up at 10:30 and get shit together.
2. go pick up leightons mom at her house and take her to her car at 1:00pm.
3. go to Mission Valley to meet up with Sanu
4. stop by gamestop and preorder 2 things (Forced Unleashed, Warhammer Fantasy MMO)
5. stop by Borders and preorder 2 thing (A dance with Dragons, Brisingr)

Found out 2 days ago that jordan is moving out. This saves me the trouble of having to ask him to leave in October. Dalina is in the process of looking for a new roommate. Jordan is going to leave here a friend of mine but as for living together i hope to god that never happens again. We just don't match up as in that department. I was hoping to find someone young who would be willing to have a good time but was still responsible. I also wish i could find a girl to move in and not for the reasons that everyone will assume. Its more that sense we are find a random person to move in with i want to make sure that Dalina is safe. I wish i could live with someone i trust....

So its been 15 weeks sense i last updated this thing. I don't even think anyone reads it any more but thats ok. Last night James came over for about an hour and managed to fix my computer. It has been broken for over a year and he just walked in and figured it out. See i got my bad ass computer of death in april of last year and not once has it worked to its full potential. To be fair it still isn't but thats because we were forced to under clocked the video card to get it to run stable. So i can now play all the high end games i have always wanted to....just not with my video card at where it should be. I am like one of the few people who can play Crysis on full graphics and not be super lagged or anything but before i got this fixed i couldn't play it at all. Tomorrow i am going to search for my other sticks of ram and throw them in here and then start backing everything up for a complete reboot. I might even go back to Vista. I haven't decided yet but i will start posting in this thing again so that people who care can keep up with whats going on.

IT HAS BEGUN!!!!

The countdown to the end of the Dark Ages has begun.

Yesterday RX the team that came to San Diego to help fix the ramp at Southwest airlines has finally left. This means that on Tuesday we are bring the Xbox 360's back and the HALO 3 will begin Anew!!!!!

OK so i know i have said it about 10 or 15 different things but i will say it again and i really mean it this time. Mass Effect would make a great Pen and Pencil game.....OK there i said it. Now that being said and my beating secured i will explain this. It has 3 basic things that you can do with it. Give the soldier access to all the guns and let him upgrade them and train in them for cheaper and give him the most health. Give the Bionic(or energy guy) a huge amount of points and allow him to train in Bionics for cheaper the everyone else. Give him the least amount of health but he will be one of the more powerful classes. Kinda the caster of the game and for that he will be able to do some bullshit stuff but a few hits and he might just be out. give him light armor and basic guns....pistols and shotguns if he wants to invest the points into them. make him train harder on guns(by spending more points on them as where the soldier would be able to either be good at all guns or great at a few.) He can then us his powers to make his few guns and his few skills in them better so he can match the HP that the soldier would have. Then the Engineer or the Tech guy would get a Medium amount of HP and a low gun list. He would however be able to make his TECH tool(a computer generated image on your left or right arm that allows you to hack and use some tech based skills. to balanced them with the caster and the soldier we would allow them to agument the guns they have for cheaper and then give them cool skills like for 1 round he can make his gun think that he is firing a "burst Shot" even if his gun cant do that the computer in his gun will want to and it has a chance of doing that. He would also be able to change his gernades at a moments notice as where the rest of the party would have to buy new ones or find a tech to change them around. (different grenades would be like gas, ice, high explosives, Fusion and things like that.) He would also be able to make field repairs of armor. The really interesting thing about this game will come into play where you can mix certain classes. So you can have a soldier/bionic so like you are using your Assault Rifle and a Krogan uses his Racial ability of regen and Rush and charges you. A normal soldier would be locked into close combat. however because he has some Bionic skills he can use the Ability "throw" to knock his enemy back and throw him to the ground. then he can continue shooting him till he dies. Perhaps a normal bionic could have done the same or a normal soldier could have soaked the rush and switched to his shotgun but the soldier/bionic held his own balancing the game out. The tech/soldier could have used 2 skills in a moments notice so in the time it took the korgan to reach you(1 turn) the Tech used 2 skills(shield boost and Adrenalin rush to boost your lasting power and boost your personal strength). The soldier aspect could have busted out his shotgun in the turn it took the krogan to get there and now he is read for the close ranged fight. Giving him a fighting chance. The normal tech might have just thrown a freeze grenade but instead he had the soldiers skills with the shotgun to help him out. Just adding a bit of customization that you dont often see in a pencil and paper game.

Just beat Mass Effect and OMG!!!!!!!!

Sometimes the smallest things can be the most annoying and the largest things can be nothing. I was told today by several people that i am being selfish....now not in that kinda terminology but might has well have said that. One person accused me of something which is true and the other accused me of something that is not. I am not going to go into the specifics of either of the cases but that is the truth of it. I also got decided today to make a choice for Bretton's D*D game where i will not really get involved in much role play. I don't know if he will even notice but we will see if my protest will go on for very long. He created an expansive world where political intrigue happens and all that but then he goes and does the standard DM thing where he gets a boner for his own game and his NPC reflect this. He always seem to do what the PC's do but just a bit bigger being as he knows what we are doing now. He also will build his enemies around fighting us. Now this isn't a total thing i mean he throws peons vs us that are meant to be destroyed and we do destroy them. However the boss characters almost always escape and almost always are VASTLY more powerful then the party. The other thing that got to me today is that i discovered how much time we really do waste today. Dalina and i got into it today about Thursday's schedule. She has plans for most of the day and i wanted to go out during the day. I didn't ask however instead i asked to fit into her schedule and when she couldn't make that happen i decided i was going to go out. She didn't like that very much cause she felt like i was ditching her but really she was the one who didn't have time for me. I am tired of rambling on about this at 03:33 in the morning. i am off to bed soon here in a few but in the meantime i am doing to go ahead and finish watching Rent here....a friend got me into this movie.

Been a while sense my last post but not to much to report. I was SUPER sick with what leighton is calling HIV+. its not really its just what he is calling everything from a cough to well....whatever it was that i had. But its over now and i am getting back to what i do best. Christmas is fast approaching and i hope everyone gets everything that everyone wants. I guess my biggest issue with christmas is when people get you stuff and you dont get them anything. i want to and i wish i could but i dont have the money to buy everyone something. I just hope that i can make everyone happy this year and move on. Also get in touch with me for new years fun i have a few friends joining me and a few more would be nice company.

Once again i am poor.....shit this sucks. I have gone into money conservation mode to save up some money again. i knew it would be hard around Christmas but i didn't think things would get as tight as they are. I am going to have to cut down on going out and hanging and just anything that involves driving and spending money. i am also going to start picking up shifts again. I am sure things will work out but its just hard.

There is something else i wanted to talk about....but i have lost my nerve and i will write about it another time

So i am getting better a short bit at a time but my throat is still killing me. Dalina said today that she was starting to feel the signs of her throat going AWOL on here so we are hitting her with medicine and trying to get it under control. We wont be letting her work in the rain while sweating and being cold at the same time like i did...stupid.

I haven't been really sick in a while so after my long as break from the plague i forgot how much i hated being sick. I wouldn't go so far as to say its the worst thing ever...but its pretty close. I am really praying that i am better by tomorrow cause my throat is killing me.

"hey dude i am moving in a week wanna give me a hand?"
"no"
"no?...what do you mean no"
"yeah i have met my moving quota"
"alright"


about a month later

"hey dude did i wake you?"
"no but Dalina is asleep next to me"
"oh sorry...are you working on monday?"
"no why"
"is chica working on monday?"
"no why"
"was wondering if i could barrow you and the kitty van to help move some boxes"
"no"
"why not i helped you move in the past"
"not interested"

funny how different things look if you zoom out and take a look at your actions.

A good friend from work let me barrow his copy of Heroes season 1 and i have to say its so damn good i cant take my eyes off of it. i am on disk 4 of 6 and Nikki is in jail, matt just told his wife, hiro just found out how to get his sword to help fix his powers, peter is getting attacked by the invisible guy. Its so damn good dalina and i got up this morning and from like noon till...well about 10 minutes ago i have been watching ever sense(its 2147 right now).